Hurt and confused…

I really just needed to get this off my chest…

I seem to have the worst luck with men and relationships lately. I was seeing this guy and out of the blue he stops talking to me. I thought he was almost perfect (except the fact that he lives far away). He knew how to make me laugh (one of those genuine, gut busting laughs), he always said the right things, and he seemed to genuinely care about me. I really fell for him. Then one day, he just stopped talking to me. No explanation. Nothing. I was heartbroken. It still hurts now. That ended in in June. Then I started seeing this other guy at the end of July. One of the nicest guys I’ve ever been with. He treated me right and was always sweet to me. He’s 19 (I’m 22). I just felt that he was still acting like an immature 19 year old most of the time. And to me, that got annoying. So, I broke it off with him. I felt bad that I did at first because he was so upset and I really didn’t want to hurt him. But the next day, he was already seeing someone else. 

I feel like every guy I become involved with starts out as a great guy. There’s been about 4-5 total. They’re funny, sweet, adorable, and intelligent. Then out of the blue they become a complete asshole. Or I find something wrong with them. This makes me think there’s something wrong with me. I don’t go looking for something wrong with them, because the guys that always become the assholes, I really fall for. 

I’m just hurt and confused. I think I’ll just not date for a while. I don’t necessarily need advice or anyone to make me feel better. But words couldn’t hurt… At least not anymore.

Florence + the Machine cover of “Oh! Darling” by The Beatles.

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. — Marilyn Monroe (via skeletales)
Day 8: 
I just realized on my ravioli post, I put the wrong date… Whoops!
Oh well. Did some cleaning… Might take a nap… Wishing I could be with Owain… :(

Day 8: 

I just realized on my ravioli post, I put the wrong date… Whoops!

Oh well. Did some cleaning… Might take a nap… Wishing I could be with Owain… :(

Hahaha!! Love it!

Hahaha!! Love it!

Day 6 (cont.):
I had to make a second post because I made ravioli from scratch for dinner. Even the dough, filling and marinara sauce. So fucking good!!

Day 6 (cont.):

I had to make a second post because I made ravioli from scratch for dinner. Even the dough, filling and marinara sauce. So fucking good!!


Day and night at the same time - rare pic
The photograph attached was taken by the crew on board the Columbia during its last mission, on a cloudless day. The picture is of Europe and Africa when the sun is setting. Half of the picture is in night. The bright dots you see are the cities’ lights.

Day and night at the same time - rare pic

The photograph attached was taken by the crew on board the Columbia during its last mission, on a cloudless day. The picture is of Europe and Africa when the sun is setting. Half of the picture is in night. The bright dots you see are the cities’ lights.

(via executions-deactivated20120313)

Day 7:
Yay for getting off of work early! Nap time? I think so… 

Day 7:

Yay for getting off of work early! Nap time? I think so…